On a cold, wet morning in a northern city, a friend of mine moved through her apartment with the precision of someone who no longer had the luxury of slowing down. Her day was already full before it began, applications, forms, agencies, and the endless repetition of explaining her “career gap.”
The gap had a name: motherhood.
Years of education, two degrees, multiple languages, and a portfolio of international experience sat on her desk like artifacts from a previous life. None of it seemed to matter. Recruiters saw the missing years before they saw her skills. The new country demanded fluency she was close to achieving, but “almost fluent” was not a category employers respected. And her age, though never mentioned directly, hovered like a silent disqualification.
By mid‑afternoon, she left to pick up her children. She chose the bike instead of the car, even though the rain had turned sharp and metallic. Practicality didn’t guide the decision; habit did. The kind of habit you develop when you’ve spent years compensating for everything society assumes you lack.
Her children spotted her before she reached the school gate.
“Mama!” they shouted, running toward her with the unfiltered certainty only children possess.
To them, she wasn’t a gap, wasn’t a risk, nor was she a question mark on a CV.
She was competent, reliable, and safe.
They rode home together through the rain. She wondered why she hadn’t taken the easier route. Why does she always choose the harder one? But halfway home, her youngest, six years old, soaked, smiling, looked up and said:
“Today is the best day ever.”
The sentence landed with unexpected weight. Not dramatic, not poetic—just factual, the way children state the obvious.
It reframed the entire day.
The world often mislabels women like Elena as unambitious or unfocused. But what looks like a lack of drive is usually something else entirely: resilience, adaptation, and the constant recalibration required to keep a family, a life, and a sense of self intact.
“She kept pedaling, because stopping wasn’t an option.”
Women like her don’t disappear.
They don’t fade.
They continue.
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